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I was talking about my weird experiece two weeks ago with my friend. Basically, I just happened to saw my past life in front of me (it never happened before like this), and I found out someone around me had really bad karma with me. What should I do? My friend said, "you should go confront him and kick his ass." I paused. Then, I said calmly, "at the end of seeing my past life, I made a decision. No matter what happend in the past life, I will love and support him forever from now." My friend was in shock. Yes, my dear. You want to get tangled in the same karma all over again? Go punch your past life enermy and kicked his ass. Just don't do anything too stupid to get you to jail. Yes, if you don't change, you will fall into the same patterns again because you still don't learn the lession in this life. It will continue (according to Buddish and many other systems.) Life is full of choices. For my case, it's a little bit complicated. See...ok, for this guy, we were actually a coupld in the past life. We had loved each other deeply. However, we were too alike. We were too stubborn to express our own feeling with love when we faced obstacles in our marriage. We finally had lots of misunderstanding and he had an affair with my best friend. Did I hate him at that time? Hell Yeah! My roommate saw me talking about my past life with non-stop tears and she was so scared. She, also a sensitive person, felt such rage and hatred, sadness, sorrow, regrets, and all strong and negative emotions coming from me ( I felt it was from my 2nd chakra. My roommated said one of my screams was so horrifying like someone just died right at that moment...). At the end, I realized how much love we had had in the past. Why would I want to bring those unnecessaries to this life of mine? It took determination to let go. However, once I said I would love him forever, the extreme tense was gone in a second. That person may never know what happend between us in the past. It's me to decide if I want to carry those negatives to our future relationships. Why not let those go? It's you who is withholding it. The other person may not even know. Holding it is just to torture yourself. Only love is the answer. Hatred is never the way out. The first thing you need to do is to forgive yourself. You cannot change the past. However, you can change to future. Do you want to suffer from the bad karma once again with this person? If you already know what will happen without getting out of it, why would you choose the difficult way to live your life? I didn't. It's not easy. If this happend 6 months ago, I would just confront that person and keep giving him difficult time. Thanks to all the meditations, chakra cleaning, crystal energy, and Avartar tools I had access to, I have the strength to support myself and decide to let go. I just wish all people can decide to get out of it if they are facing their karma...Revenge is not the answer...Loving yourself is...

Regardless of the loss last month, I still rent a space in PCC flea market this time. I don't know...I just felt like it...Even I didn't make much sale last time, it's fun to practicing giving ZERO judgement on anyone passing my booth. Trust me, it's hard to have no judgement on any single person...It's fun though...And, trust me, this exercise can really change you. Anyway...This time I was more serious about tarot card reading. I was putting out my dear aura-soma tarot cards on the table. Also, I tried to sell really great crystals from my dear friends ML and Ken, two fantastic crystal healing masters. No one was interested in those. People! Those crystals can really help you to open your heart! With your heart chakra closed, it's hard for you to achieve anything! You want happiness in your love life? You need to open your heart! You want to have a successful career? You need to create the passion for that! Heart chakra! The most important one for you to manage first! Anyway...Doing tarot card reading on that day was a fun experience because some people came to T.E.S.T. me! Two people told me that they actually were doing tarot card reading by themselves after my reading. I was like...W.T.H??? I have to say that you have to be strong to be a counselor. People cry, rage, get depressed, and have all exterme emotions right in front of you. I have to really admire my tarot card teacher. She has been a counselor for so many years and still hanging there. Amazing! When we ( whoever taught by our tarot card teacher Grace) do the reading, we have to show our support to the person in front of us. We don't provide an answer. We provide options. Remember, tarot cards reflects how you feel under your current situation. If you make a decision or change your mind with in 3 seconds, even though you draw the same card, our reading will be different. Yes, the point here is that YOU CAN CHANGE YOUR OWN FATE! We will suggest you how to make the situation better. Personally, I prefer to pull out the fear or some negative aspects of the client, and "recommend" he or she to work on improving. What's the point if I just tell you how the future will be if you can really change it if you want to? It's no fun for the counselor since we need to walk through your sorrow, disappointment, sadness, rage, hopelessness and more with you. Before I learned tools from Avatar courses, I could only use meditation or waivers to clean myself afterwards. Avatar courses did help me to speed up the cleaning process and to be more capable to support people during the reading sessions. Ohh man, it took a lot of energy to pull out the worries or even fear underneath people. After I packed and went home, I took a three hour nap, which hadn't happend for million years. However, if any person had a reading on that day can improve his or her relationship with the loved one(s) any single bit, it's totally worth it. And, ohh yeah, thanks to my dear dear friend Eunice to visit me! Without your support, I would be just dying there...

 

Today, when I left home, I saw someone's car was still with the lights on. I rushed to her and told her that. She smiled and said, "dear, it turned off automatically." I was so FxxKING embarrassed! But, she continued, "thanks still!" And, she gave me this really big flying kiss! Wow...Again, it's totally worth it!

Wish all the people I met on Sunday found the path of love without hesitation

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Ok...so...For the aura-soma therapy, 4 bottles have to be chosen. When a person applies them to the body, he/she starts with the second one he/she chooses, then the third, then the fourth, finally the first one. After that terrifying #27 divorce bottle (my second one), I was happy to move on. However, when I looked into the information on #55, I was like WHAT THE HELL!!??? The main theme is "To Develop Sacrificial Love". I was cursing somebody I-don't-know whom when I saw the words. #*)$(&(*^&*(&*(@@_)($#$%!!! God! I need to sacrifice more? Jesus Chris Mother Theresa! Anyway, I still applied it. I used 80% of it before I went to Avatar Wizard Course 2008. In the course, I suddenly realized how easeful and delightful one person can be with unconditional love. It's still somehow hard for me to achieve 100% now though. I was listening to Harry Palmer's talk in the course one day. He mentioned the force of pushing and pulling. Thanks to that alien (my belief) Newton, we know whenever we are apply force on one thing, there must be some counterforce existing. So, it applies. If you do put desire on something, there must be some resistence. My realization was that if someone is with conditional love, this person suffers from a belief of insufficient love. Ok...in a relationship...If you are asking for return, you must feel that you are not loved enough. Otherwise, why are you asking for something in return? However, when you feel you don't have enough love in you, how can you give love to others? You already feel scarcity. You yell at others saying you've been giving out so much. Ohh boy, you really didn't give much since you have fear of not having enough already. So, yeah...I have to say that giving without asking anything back is hard. I felt dizzy when I first did that. Thanks God I have rose quartz and other crystals with love energy to fill my heart chakra. Thanks to our mother earth! Praise her! Of course, the pink Pomander helped, too! Use whatever you can get to help you. Again, I can't say this too many times. Ok, back to the force...more pushing, more pulling. Both sides will suffer from the force of confrontation. One side has to let go first. It's hard. And, I am still learning...After the course, I finished the bottle in 3 days. I was so ready to move on to my next bottle. Wait, what's the affirmation of #92? Ohh, you have to chant the affirmation when applying aura-soma on your body and believe in it to make it work. "Before enlightment: chop wood, carry water. After enlightment: chop wood, carry water"!!??? WTH??? Sorry, Ms. Vicky Wall, I cursed again. I know aura-soma is good. My bad! I haven't and any insight on applying #92 yet. Hope I will get it soon. And, Gosh...my first bottle is even worse...don't even want to think about it now...Let me just hypnotize myself now...Applying them all...it's for my own good and cleaning up...Applying them all....(feeling like cursing again...better stop here...)

Ok, since I weat my Seraphnite, I can't stop posting. Actually, whenever I wear it, I do something I wouldn't do in the past. In a good way, I think...Like two days before, I met a 6 or 7 year old boy in front of the supermarket. He was trying to sell me chocolate. He's so skinny and tiny with those big shiny eyes. "Do you want to buy some chocolate," he asked me carefully. I looked at him, "I don't eat chocolate (yeah, right...I just don't eat bad chocolate and I only eat dark)." I was ready to leave him but something poped up from out of nowhere. I turned back and walked to him, "you know what? I will buy two." He looked surprised with delight. "Wait, here is the deal," I continued. "I will buy two but I won't take them. You will have these two and you can give them to the people you like." His eyes went bigger. "Ok?" I smiled at him. He coughed, paused, then nodded. I gave him 5 dollars. He went to his older brother and get a one-dollar change. "So, you understand the deal? You give the chocolate to..." "Whoever I want," he was so delighted. "Good, let's shake hands. We have a deal," I shaked his weak and cold hand, then I left with saying see-you-later. I never bought things in this kind of situation. I did anyway. Ok, anyway...

Back to Asthma...I never really had Asthma. I had symptoms close to Asthma when I was in high school. I could suddenly hardly breath for half minutes. No harm was really done. What happened then? I felt disapproval. I felt unsupported. And, I couldn't feel the love at all. It's not just me. My dear friend Grace used to have Asthma since elementary school. I confirmed with her. She suffered from the same. Her mom disapproved her. She couldn't feel the support from anyone and she was so isolated. Yeah, I felt isolated in my family at that time also. I have to say not everyone would encounter Asthma under the same situation. Children who are more sensitive are more likely to suffer from it, like one of me ex boyfriends. He claimed he couldn't feel the love and support he used to have after his younger sister was born. Ok, me, Grace, and my ex-bf all have overcome Asthma. For my ex-bf, he just affirmed that he could support himself and didn't need others' approval. For me and Grace, we are lucky to obtain a lot of ove from our dear friends now and we treasure that. Once again, different affirmations work for the same situation. The point is to make yourself feel supported, no matter where that comes from. Either it's your determination or it's other's love, just believe in it!

Epistaxis...Ugh? It's nosebleed in English, my love. Ok, I almost didn't have it. Maybe once in my life and just one drop. I believed it didn't count. However, I have this case. She's my dear friend and she's only 8 year-old. She's quite mature, I have to say. She has nosebleed very often, as I heard. I met her in Avatar course and we have been best pals ever since. I refused to grow up and she can't wait to become an adult. Anyway...Her relatives have been telling me her epistaxis problem. No one knew the cause. After her nosebleed situation, she always wanted ice cream. However, eating ice cream would put her in fever. One day, in the course, we two were fooling around. She was using my laptop to draw pictures online

 and all of the sudden she strated to have nosebleed. Thanks God my 2 grade next seat classmate always had that and I didn't have the panic attack. Just out of a feeling, I asked her, "do you feel any inability in your daily life?" She kept silent. I looked at her and said ( I still can't figure out how those words came out of my mouth), "you have done what you can do. Don't feel that you are just a child and have no power over the situation. You do what you can do and it's more than enough." I know she took my words. She's a very special child. Sensitive...even with great great intuition...I don't know if it's a curse or a blessing. Children with great sensitivity can feel the energy around them so well. It comes from the both sides. You can feel the positive and negative energy better than others. If a child can't handle this feeling, it may cause some symptoms and reactions from the body. In my dear friend's situation, she has nosebleed. She felt rash when she has no control over things she encountered. When someone feels rash, it indicates rapid/impulsive energy flow in the body and the person may feel some heat or rising temprature. Ok, for my friend, she went for the ice cream. It's not just something cold to cool her down. It's also sweet. Sweets have known to be able to block your feelings. For OSHO class participants, they have been asked not to eat sweets because sweets would slow down/block your awaring ability. Ohh well, for my friend, she doesn't spare herself from escaping with the sweets. She creates resistence. Therefore, she has fever after eating the ice cream. Doctors have told us that fever comes from the confrontation of your immune system and the invaders. Confrontation is a resistence force. Whenever I face a situation I don't like and start to resist it, my body temprature goes higher. If it's serious, people will call it a fever. The only way to solve this is create an acceptance. Tell yourself that you are safe and capable of handling these situation. Ohh, yeah...my dear 8-year old friend has been used to have nosebleed everyday until she took my affirmations. No bose bleed until the end of the course...Coincident? All I can say is that diseases may have general causes internally. Trying the affirm yourself with a few sentences won't give you any side effect, unlike some pills. Again, whatever helps, give it a try. Love yourself with no hesitations (I know I know...it's hard...I am still trying, too).

Since the day I decided to write something about Alzheimer disease, my mind and body are resisting to the outermost limit. Whenever I opened my blog and tried to write something about it, I felt so exhausted and I needed to head to bed. Today, after three mugs of tea straight, I finally started to write about it. God damn, it is because my mom has Alzheimer. And, the my mom has always played THE most important role of my karma. Ok, so...what may cause my mom's Alzheimer? Any disease comes internally, again. According to my dear Louise Hay, Alzheimer caused by anger toward the external environement and feeling effortless in real life situations. Personally, I feel there is more. The parients refuse to face the past and the reality. Therefore, they choose to escape from the pain facing the mistakes in the past or pain in the present and to adandon their memories and start to isolate them from the environmental signals. The hurt and pain created by themselve due to the stimuli from the outside world are too heavy for them to handle. (Thanks to Darjeeling so I can continue...urrr). Now, the real case...My mom started to have significant memory lost about 5 years ago. Ok, what happened 5 years ago? My dad planed to retired. My mom has always been financially insecured and tried to force me to stand by her side to persuade my dad not to retire. I was so FxxKing pissed off at that time. I need to mention something first. When I was in the 2nd grade, my mom  put our family in great debt and lied to my dad. Unfortunately (fortunately?), I knew the truth when I happened to hear my mom's phone conversation one day. Once my mom found out I knew the truth, she had been forcing me to lie to my dad with her, or, she said, "if I and your dad got a divorce, you can't gain any good from it. You understand me?". I was young and fearful. I lied. One lie after another...I had to cover one lie with 10 more lies...You do the math...Then, I became a liar for the rest of my life until I started Avatar. That's another story though. Back to 5 years ago...After a few phone conversation, I finally yelled at my mom, "dad has been working to his dead body for his whole life. If you hadn't put us in such a big debt 20 years ago, dad can even retire ealier as he wishes!" My mom literally screamed at me like some insane person with such a big rage, then hang up the phone. (Another big sip of my Darjeeling) I don't know if I did the right thing at that time. Should I stand by my mom's side or my dad's? I will never know. However, bad things did start to happen. We never know the exact time point when my mom started to have this serious memory loss and lost the ability to learn new things (she used to be THE smart ass among her colleagues). I tried to trace back and I believe the retirement argument was the starting point. I hadn't been forgiving myself on this for a while. Ok, so, my mom felt powerless over my dad and I  no more unlike she used to. Yeah, she was the queen of our family, no doubt. No one can offend her or she would collapse right in front of us. Due to the curse/blessing of love, my dad and I learned to let her do whatever she preferred to avoid the conflicts. Trust me, you don't want her to collapse. One time, she literally said the following to me, "I curse you that you will be tortured to death by your own future child ever after." Yeah...Horrifying...I had trying to be an obidient daughter. I came home right after school. I was the top-one in both elementary and middle school. I went to the best high school and university in my country...Anyway...Ok...However, this time, she lost control over the situation. How bad of her resistence to face the reality? She kept claiming that she had no memory lost at all. However, her friends had been annoyed by her memory lost problem. She would accuse others that they took her stuff and it's not that fact. Fortunately, she had great friends and all they do was trying to support her. They tried to sneak back from my mom and talked to me about this. Trust me. My mom didn't even give them the slight chance to talk to me without her monitoring. Ok, so I got into a lot of fights with my mom and tried to persuade her to see the doctor. Come on. She didn't want to face the reality. How can she agree to see a doctor to know the crucial truth? One day, I collapsed in front of her and beg her to see the doctor. She still ignored. My dad just told me to go back to US and leave this behind. "I will take care of her," he said. I cried even louder. I didn't know if it's the sorrow or the love of my dad hit me that hard. Finally, one day, one of my mom's friend tricked her into a clinic and forced her to have the examination. Now, she's taking medicines. After the diagnose, I tried to talk about Alzheimer with my mom but she has been avoiding this conversation. She would just yelled bye bye to me and hang up the phone.  I had been asked her to read the affirmation from Louise Hay's book but she chose to discard it. One day, I decided to record a video clip, emailed it to my dad, and asked my dad to force my mom to watch it. I said to my mom that she has been strong. And, no matter what happens, I will support her. After that, she became less intense when we mentioned Alzheimer. Not much progress but it's progress. (Now, I ran out of Darjeeling. I am panic.) Ok...so...what are the possible non-medical help to ease the Alzheimer symptoms in my opinion? First, refer to Louise Hay's " Heal Your Body A-Z: The Mental Causes for Physical Illness and the Way to Overcome Them ", read the affirmation related to such disease, and truly believe in them. Crystal healing is another way to go. It lets go your past and will guide you to find the forgiveness to yourself. For me, I will work my mom and take her to the Avatar course. Yeah, I will face my karma eventually, FINALLY! I will fly back home and work on my mom for her to take the course in late March. God Damn it! I was planning to see Aurora Australis in New Zealand at that time. However, "THANKS to" my Mandala Oracle two days ago (I was cursing when I read the card I chose), I changed my mind due to the affirmation, "Love is a choice from moment to moment." Do I want to love selflessly? I admit I want to go to NZ because I have some other reasons. Do I want to chase after my dream or compromise for my own family? I guess the answer has been clear...It's my mom. I can never hate her. I can only love her...

Before I share my observation on some diseases and the possible causes due to karma/emotions/internal problems in the next few posts, I have to address the viewpoint of Ms. Louise Hay again. All the body problems and diseases are caused by mental or internal reason. I am inpired to write a few posts regarding to this because of my friend Simon from New Zealand. He's a medical doctor. I actually met him half year ago but never got a real chance to talk to him until last week. (And, yeah, I always rememered when he first smiled at me during my first Avatar course. My friend said I was blushed all over in 1 second at that moment.) Ok, so, we both took Avatar courses. This time, we were in the Wizard course. My roommate and I had this party one night and he came (thanks God). He shared his viewpoint that it's much more important to heal someone internally than externally. I was...so...not going to find to word to describe how I felt at that instant. Yes, the solution is to heal your heart. When I was in the middle school, I was diagnozed that an essential chemical for nerotransmitting was missing in my brain. Hell no, I don't know the name of that super long Latin word. There was no cure. I had to be fed with folic acid and one other whatever stuff for the rest of my life. The symptoms are similar to hyperthyrodism's. Not until recently, I finally realized these symptoms came from the anger I created since my 4th grade. Yes, there was something I considered bad happening at that time. I was keep a secret for my mom from my dad, and had become a liar in the family ever since. Unfortunately, my god/budda/karma given personalities placed huge judgements on my behavior. I started to get angry at myself and withhold it in me. My hands are always trembling severely. I felt losing control of my life and myself for being a liar. My body showed the same. The trembling was uncontrollable. After all the metahpysical courses, training, and, of course, Avatar courses, I dealt with the pain and hurt in the past. My symptoms got so much better. As always, I would say you can change your own fate. Karma can be released if you have intents strong enough. To support yourself, use whatever tools you can to keep your intent strong. Crystals, aura-soma, meditations, and more...Avatar courses are very powerful in this sense. The point is that you decide to love yourself and realize the past is not worth being withhold. Your life will have the same patterns if you keep strangling in your past or karma or things not happening at this moment. You will meet the same players who ruin your love life. You will meet boyfriends who are like your biggest karma (that's my mom, in my example. Once I told my ex that why should I hide ~7000miles away from my real mom and be with another with a dick. Gees!) We may not be able to realize how stong we can be to change the situation to obtain the life we deserve in the past. But, don't let it become an excuse to stop you from a better life since today...Love yourself. Everyone deserves it.

I have been to the Avatar Wizard Course for two weeks. I have to say, among all the classes/courses I have taken, this one is the best of the best. When you can start to appreciate anyone and anything, you can only feel more delighted every single moment of your time. If you further decide to help others, the growth and sucess of those people will give you the ultimate fulfillment in the depth of your heart. You can only experience it by yourself. No one can ever describe and plant that feeling into you.

So, on the last day of my stay, I sat on the hotel lobby floor, surfed on the internet, and waited the clock to hit 3 to go to the airport. My dear friend Jesse showed up. Jesse is an amazing artist. His drum beat can really touch your heart. During the past 2 weeks, we had small concerts in the hotel lobby almost every night. Our friend Arnold from Netherland and his family members played guitars and other instruments. Chris was another performer with his drum. If you are interested, you can see some clips on my youtube channel (http://www.youtube.com/anney1120). At the end of every concert, we just felt the energy flows and everyone left with a H.U.G.E. smile on their faces. It can't be more blessed to live on this precious planet. Back to Jesse and me in the lobby...He came to me. We didn't really talk before. We always met in the concert. He was always playing, and I was singing along and dancing whenever I felt like to. Ok...So, we initialized our coversation and exchanged our contact information. Then, out of a sudden, Jesse pulled out a rose out of nowhere (according to me). "This is for you. Smell it. It's really lovely." I was suprised. I took the rose and smelled it. It's the pure beauty you could ever ask for. I smiled. Jesse continued, "you can decide to keep it or share it." I looked at him and just felt a vibe, "I will shared it." We both smiled. After a few more sentences, he left and I headed to the other end of the lobby to meet my other fellows. Then, I decided it's time for a grande green tea latte of soy from Starbucks. I just had a feeling that I should bring the rose with me. I arrived at Starbucks and ordered my drink. The girl at the counter looked at me, "I like your rose. It's really beautiful!" I smiled at her, "You can have it if you want to." She was kinda in shock. I continued, "we are sharing this rose. You can decide to keep it or share it. But, you have to smell it and feel it first!" I briefly told her the short history about our rose. She said yes. I passed her the rose. She smelled it and be with a purely beautiful smile on her face. My smile grew bigger. After a few seconds, I left the counter silently and waited for my drink. Suddenly, the store manager came to me with a warm smile and handed my a small piece of card, "this is our company card. Thanks for sharing the rose." Now, I was kinda in shock. I looked at the card. It said, "So nice to share the flower!    The girls@ Starbucks

" I couldn't stop that big smile on my face. Isn't that lovely? Isn't that the world we want to live in? Sharing it...

Ok, I know I am a lousy story teller. So, the story didn't end here. Just before I packed this morning, I felt that I should bring a rose quartz along with me (yeah, I brought few crystals when I travel sometimes even aura-soma). And, I also had two chinese knot dragonfly pins made by my dad with me. So, I headed to the airport after Starbucks, got on the first plane and transitted in Altlanta, and jumped on my next plane. Just before landing, the woman sitting next to me seemed a little bit tight. She hold her hands together with finger crossed, closed her eyes, and being really serious. I looked at her. After a few seconds, she opened her eyes. I pulled out the rose crystal from my pocket and put in her hand, "hold it, you will feel better." She looked at me, "what is this?" "It's rose quartz. It will make you feel better." She held it. Close her eyes. At that instant, she's more relaxed. She even had a small smile on her face. I also passed one dragonfly pin to the girl next to her. Before we left the plane, she said to me, "thanks for your support." "No problem," I smiled. After getting out of the plane, I headed to the baggage claim. Suddenly, I heard a child crying. I turned back and saw a mom carrying a baby and holding hands with another. The girl was crying. I felt she just needed some support. I passed her the last dragonfly pin, "this is for you. Be careful of the pin." She looked at me. Her tear stopped at an instant. Her mom was also delighted. The child didn't draw a smile at her face at the moment, but the beautiful innocence appreared on her face was so treasurable... The end of my sharing day...I will always remember every bit of the energy flow on that day. I am not sure why I was willing to share that much on that certain day. I just am graceful to have a day of this in my life...ever...forever...

Yeah yeah, just yesterday, I felt lack of love again. I have been busy consulting other friends but forgot to handle my own problems. I have been wondering if I will meet that guy in the incoming Avatar course again. I am not sure if other people have this kind of experience. When you stand next to someone, you just feel the temperature in the environment around you ( not on you) has gone higher and higher. I asked my crystal healing master. She said it means you and that guy have karma. HOLY SXXT! I know I should the best way to figure out what I really want related to that guy is to first meditation then ask my heart for an answer. An answer from your brain is not the best answer. It just a compromise with fantasizing with so-call reality. Reality is something you decide how to experience by your own. It’s all you. You decide how to react to certain things, certain people, and certain circumstances. No, no one can decide how the experience something but yourself. When your mom yells at you, you can decide (or you just go being a no brainer and let whatever happen) to yell back at her and indulge in your own anger, or to take a deep breathe, look at her raged face like watching a soap opera. It’s your decision, really. Take 2-3 seconds before bursting anything out of your mouth. Ok, back to the track. So, I felt my 4^th chakra was blocked by something. Some idea just came to me, and I went to my bath room and started to draw a bath. I head back to my rooms and grabbed whichever rose quartz and put them into the water. After I soaked myself into the bathtub, I felt some much better in a second. My 4^th chakra started to open again. I felt empowered and had more strength to continue on what I was doing- creating a website for people to send love message to others (it’s love2earth.com. I hope to launch it in early February).

 

There are some other ways to absorb the love energy from rose quartzes. My crystal healing master put several rose quartzes in the filter pitch. Whenever you are consuming water directly or for cooking, you are taking in the energy. Brilliant! Of course, you can always hold the crystal in your hands and make intent to receive the energy. Or, just put it (them) on your 4^th chakra, the middle point between your two nipples. But, no matter whatever you do, just remember to clean your crystal afterwards. You can hold the crystal under the running cold water, make intent for it to be clean, and think of something you really love from the bottom of my heart. The rumor is that don’t think of sex. Or, for rose quartzes, you can expose them to the moonlight on the full moon night. You can always burn incense or white sage and circle your crystal clockwise above it until you feel comfortable. The last but not the least, you can buy aura-soma white pomander circle your crystal clockwise above it. It costs much more though.

I just finished my aura-soma bottle 27. Aura-soma? According to the creator Ms. Vicky Wall, you are the color you choose. Aura-soma is a therapy, using (until this year) contents of 106 bottles (number 0-105). Each bottle has two different color layers of liquid. The liquid contains various kind of energy, including herbal, crystal, planetary, and more. Using these different color combinations in the bottles, you are able to find the content of your soul. Why? It is because the color can vibrate with your soul frequency. Colors are actually consist of mix of lights. Lights are energies. All energies have vibration frequencies, including your soul. You may find out you are more attracive to some specific colors because the color frenquency and your soul frequency resonate. And, you may have different color preference from time to time. Do you remember what color you like most when you were young? The frequency of that color is more close to the one of your soul. When we grow up, many emotions and other defensive mechanisms started to be created by ourselves and we are establishing blocks between the outer-self and our real soul.

Ok, so...For Aura-soma therapy, you usually choose 4 bottles. Color combinations in these bottles indicate your current attitude towards your life and goals, and your problems at this moment. Each combination has its own meanings. You can refer to books written by Vicky Wall or Mike Booth. The first bottle represents the mission of your soul. The second one reveals your current problems and challenges. The third one shows how you have done on your life path, and the forth one reveals your possible future scenario. After you choose these four bottles, you will use one at the time on your body. Where to apply depends. You have to refer to books written by Vicky Wall or Mike Booth. You have to start with the second bottle, then the third, then the fourth, finally the first one. Before you apply, you have to shake the bottle and mix two layers together. Read the affirmation sentence (find it out in the book) when you apply to your body. Read it sincerely until you believe in it. Usually, don't let other people touch your bottles. If that happens, you have to ask aura-soma certitified masters to clean it for you (this is the only way I know). Use left hand to hold them if possible.

I made my choice late last year. My second bottle was #27. It has a horrifying nickname: Divorce Bottle. Come on. I have been single and available, and never am married. Why did I get a Divorce Bottle? I created a lot of resistence. Well, this bottle helps people to overcome hurts and anger after a separation/ divorce. I did suffered from my last relationship. All I can say is it didn't end up pretty at all. The funny(?) thing is that aura-soma would pull out a lot of emotions created in the past, not just for the recent ones. If you do the meditation at the same time, breathing in the color energy and letting the auroma of the color mix awake your senses, you may find out your patterns in relationships or other aspects which cause you sorrow, rage, or other negative emotions for your whole life. Different people have various experience. For me, the scenes of my previous relationships (even the ancient ones) flashed back in front of my eyes. If you feel like crying, let your tears burst out. I, personally, compress my feelings a lot and with my stupid pride, I don't even like to cry when I am alone. So, I need what I call TV/Movie meditations. Don't laugh. I once read a book called Meditation Bible and it even mentioned "Shopping Mediation" (I can see some girls start to smiling and can't wait to try it). I choose some TV programs or movies which I guarantee will touch my heart. I did my TV mediation with Extreme Makeover Home Edition this Sunday. Ohh, man, wasn't that effective? I always bursted into tears everytime I watched this program. I felt more light-weighted after this. It felt really good. 

Just one final thing about aura-soma...If you choose a bottle containing a red color layer, don't apply it after late afternoon. The red color will bring out a lot of previously created anger and rage from you. You may suffer from sleeping problem due to agitation. It's somehow and sometimes painful to dig out the sorrow and pain you've buried in your heart. However, being really experience it and accepting the consequences, you are finally able to let them go once and for all. It's like the dust and stains on your soul has been washed away. But, you first need to locate them and look at them in order to wash them away. Yes, you have to face the ugliness of them before doing so. However, you will feel clean and delighted. It is totally worth it. Don't carry those for your whole life. Everyone deserve the purest happiness! Just like a child does...